I cannot read about the Mumbai attacks and not shed a tear. It's just devastating. And so close to Christmas too. Here is a lesson though. Do not lax up on security just 'cause nothing has happened for a while. I can't think about this anymore. It just tears me apart.

I had a weird dream last nite. I dreamt that my sister died. It was a little tragic. I cried buckets in the dream. I wander if it's significant for anything. It was a little overwhelming :S

A step into the official world is like a reality slap. It's been about three days. Not much has changed but I guess the real test begins next week, Tues. I'm excited but at the same time exhausted.

Christmas is around the corner!! Ahhh!! The only true holiday which I totally enjoy. I would love to be sipping cocoa, in front of the fireplace with light snow falling outside as the warmth inside embraces me with carols in the background.

I've begin my irregular sleeping habits again. I can't help it. Too much on the plate 'ere. Need the shut-eye as much as possible.

Winona Ryder had a fainting spell after taking one too many Xanax pills on a flight. Ok, that's interestingly scary seeing how two is my favourite number.

18th Nov 1983, u slipped into the darkness of the inevitable.
25 years have passed.
They say I'm like you in many ways.
I don't know and probably never will.

Can you miss someone you've never met?
It's not impossible.
I love you, Granma.

I had an interesting morning. The company was invited by a certain joint for the launch of their breakfast. So, my colleague and I went to the invited location (ECP) around 8.55 since it was scheduled for 9. We dragged ourselves out of bed on a rainy and cold morning and went over. Of coz we wouldn't have gone, but the order came from the top so no dodging. Anyway, when we got there, there was nothing at all. We looked around and well, nobody was there. So we checked my email via the hp and there was an email mentioning that it was cancelled due to something. I was like - are you fucking kidding me?!' My coll and I were speechless (from hunger as well). So then we settled for a little toast cafe and had bf/k there. Sigh.

Didn't feel like going back to the office so we totally crashed at Starbucks. And this was the thing. It was just beautiful. Rain outside fogged the windows. It was cold. Christmas songs were playing inside and we had a cuppa each (Ok I didn't have a cuppa, I had an icy drink but still....). It jus felt so Christmas-y that I totally wanted to begin my writing there. But all dreams hve to end so we started out for the office. We took a stroll by the beach to get there which just intensified the feeling of cold, cozy and calm. I mite just use my future lunch hours to stone, think, dream, etc. at ECP. Yeah, it's not like the beaches in other countries, but it's still something better than nothing.

I have a busy Saturday. Media stuff, etc. Yawn.

The wall in front of my table is messing with my 'qi'.

I should really get back to my writing. It's almost 3.