hope

have you ever seen something and wished your heart's desire that you can get it even though, deep inside, you know the cutting truth that you'll never be able to get it? so as each day passes, ur understanding, of not getting that thing, reaches its fullest but still...there is a slight hope that you might one day be able to have it. but the day seems to get further and further. but u still go on...each day...sighing and it's hard...especially when u see that thing you want so much and can't have. it tears the heart very much. u can't breathe. and the worst is when u see another person in possession of it. so wat do u do? u bite ur tongue, clench ur fist and smile through everything. and keep the hope burning that the day will eventually come when ur heart's desire is in ur hand.

I M +

Hey ho! I am feeling very positive today. My usual pessimism state has vanished. But I'm willing to bet it'll be back. Oh wait...see..my expectation of it coming back is already pessimism in a way. Ha! I knew it couldn't last long. School's getting a teeny bit boring. I mean my attention span is like 10 mins. It has improved actually. It used to be 5! Anyway, wat was i saying? Oh rite. School...Well...errrr. can't remember wat I wanted to say... Hmmmm ........Ok let's jump to something else...Ohhh, I am soooo happy Ellen DeGeneres is hosting the Emmys this yr! Yay!It's on Monday the 19th (US Timing Sun nite, the 18th)... I mean so far this is the date unless they cancel it out of respect for the victims of the hurricane Katrina......I am gonna end now...The optimisim has used up so much of my energy...Yawn....Nite...Zzzzzzzzzz

as usual

hey there. how's everyone? i have been so tied up with stuff that i totally forgot i had a blog. a lot of good stuff has been happening. i am not gonna go into details. anyway, this blog is officially back. i have a crave for a hotdog now and it doesn't help that it's 3 in the morning. sigh. anyway....stay tuned and u might just find out what's making me smle so much.