Lifeless

Mon afternoon... I should be in school, in Econs class but here I am staring at my comp screen. Not in the mood these days for anything. I have a VCD that's overdue from Bt. Timah's Video Ezy, homwork that's due this week and a piano exam next month which I am absolutely not prepared for....I feel lifeless.Dead. Like it's not worth doing anything anymore. I look to my right. Oh gawd, my Econs homework.... I look to my left...Hmmmm my comfy bed with the 'Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire' book which Li Min bought for me last week as a friendship present. My table's in a mess which looks like an avalanche about to happen. I seem to be stuck in the past. Not the past in my life but the past which past me before I was even born. Like how do u get stuck in something that you weren't even part of? What am I doing? Am i lying to everyone or am I just lying to myself? I find it hard to breathe. Am I holding too much inside? What is it I'm holding in the first place? WHAT?! I seem to be held prisoner in some glass sphere, in myy mind. I am my own worst enemy. I am my tormentor.