I have so many WHYs. Nothing makes sense anymore. It's like walking in a fucking circle and ending up where u started. I really should stop taking Xanax. I wake up feeling more anxious than when I go to bed......Sometimes I feel like dropping everything and running....George Orwell wrote in Nineteen Eighty-Four, ' Perhaps a lunatic was simply a minority of one'. Perhaps, indeed. Or perhaps I really am mad. Oh, why.....

I loved Sunshine Cleaning. I really did.....Well actually throw Emily Blunt in any film and I'll watch it. (Think: Irresistible and Summer of Love) Haha.

So closure's not happening, perhaps distancing might help. Breaking away to feel more alive is never wrong.

This day, last month, t.v stations, the web and, well, the world, were abuzz with the the sudden tragic news. Today, we just walk around, not caring nor remembering. Life goes on and on and on.

Anyway, don't let your Saturday droop! I'm off for an interesting evening! Have a good weekend.